I too, am a canary, I can't take antihistamines, or I get super murdery and aggro (yes, it's apparently a thing). No Claritin for this lady! Morphine causes me to hallucinate in not a good way. I can tolerate one glass of good wine, not cheap, three fingers of bourbon is my biggest tolerance. Beer does things to my digestive system that I do not appreciate. Needless to say, I do not drink very often anymore.
When I was younger, I hallucinated heavily when I smoked pot (cheap and the good stuff). But it always made me feel gross the next day, driest mouth ever, a fatigue that felt like I didn't deserve it, nausea and sometimes vomiting. Wasn't a big weed partaker compared to others (smoked it about a total of 30 times and tried gummies a couple of times) and I still despise the smell- like a skunk and an onion had a toxic relationship and had super angry sex and weed was the baby.
My sister in law on the other hand, swears by her CBD and THC accoutrements. Becomes super mellow with nowhere near the side effects I experience. It's not fair! Why can't I join the cool Gen X and Boomers who vape their weed, or use gummies and seem fairly unbothered by many things. Go in and out of surgery without any stress. Can clear their sinuses without possibly committing a felony. Weed with no mania or hallucinations would be great! I completely and utterly sympathize.
Still want to try microdosing with a professional therapist someday. Maybe I'll see other dimensions or parallel universes, if pot was any indicator of what awoke in my brain?! Or my head may just implode, who knows. Maybe ladies like us, Lisa, will find our groove in something benign, like certain batches of kimchi, certain aromatherapy combos or some random roasted root vegetable no one has ever heard of.
Yeah, I didn't much like most THC experiences either, vaping or edibles. Mostly made me dizzy. I did have some luck though with an Indica tincture (as opposed to Sativa -- sounds like you had strong Sativa, the energizing version) from a weed dispensary that came in an eye dropper that I put just two or three drops in some cocoa I sipped on and it was lovely, very soothing. Felt warm all over, helped me sleep. I wish I had some now. (You need a prescription in Florida. I should try and get one.) Anyway, might be worth a try.
Um, you *are* me and I have never tried gummies for all you describe here. In no way can I welcome any kind of 'unpredictable' reactions in my life because they always end badly. I once took a night time cold remedy that was supposed to cause drowsiness and I was up baking cookies and rabidly vacuuming trying to work through the panic, at 3 am. Codeine had me watching melting faces on a carousel turning slowly in front of my vision, as I tried desperately to sleep. But like you, wine is always lovely and my friend. I've tried CBD oil but for me, it did nothing at all. Just like drinking a bit of olive oil. This was an excellent read, incidentally!
I am breaking my own vow of never offering unasked for advice, but if you're really interested in cannabis, try a vape pen first. You can take tiny tiny little puffs, and vaping effects don't last as long. Much better way to ease into it, imho. (Apologies if I am overstepping).
There is a smell but it’s nothing like smoking weed and it dissipates quickly. You don’t get the strong smell of weed or the smell of burning. You can vape with other people in the house and they won’t know, if you’re careful. (I am also a cancer survivor—you are welcome to DM me if you have other questions on the topic)
Happened upon your essays today. Truly a wonderful treat. I’m sure you’ve heard it before but it’s important as hell - you make me feel seen and my experience in midlife validated. Gorgeous stuff. Thank you for sharing your talent here 💕
I was a a small party in New Orleans last spring, and mistakenly ingested a lot of a CBD-laced drink from a can I thought was just flavored water. I added it liberally to my vodka since I couldn’t find any club soda- my usual mixer. It was indeed a wild ride that I don’t want to go on again! Maybe I started off too fast, or maybe today’s CBD is about 20x more potent than what we smoked 40 years ago…
Oh, I am so sorry you had the worst time! I can only do a quarter of a gummy, or I get wildly thirsty and just too high??? I'm a super sensor according to the docs. I pretty much turn into Liz Taylor from "Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf" if I have morphine... it's so unpleasant--but I'm so glad I learned this about myself so I can skip the misery. Who knew we were all such bespoke creatures, but we are!
I too, am a canary, I can't take antihistamines, or I get super murdery and aggro (yes, it's apparently a thing). No Claritin for this lady! Morphine causes me to hallucinate in not a good way. I can tolerate one glass of good wine, not cheap, three fingers of bourbon is my biggest tolerance. Beer does things to my digestive system that I do not appreciate. Needless to say, I do not drink very often anymore.
When I was younger, I hallucinated heavily when I smoked pot (cheap and the good stuff). But it always made me feel gross the next day, driest mouth ever, a fatigue that felt like I didn't deserve it, nausea and sometimes vomiting. Wasn't a big weed partaker compared to others (smoked it about a total of 30 times and tried gummies a couple of times) and I still despise the smell- like a skunk and an onion had a toxic relationship and had super angry sex and weed was the baby.
My sister in law on the other hand, swears by her CBD and THC accoutrements. Becomes super mellow with nowhere near the side effects I experience. It's not fair! Why can't I join the cool Gen X and Boomers who vape their weed, or use gummies and seem fairly unbothered by many things. Go in and out of surgery without any stress. Can clear their sinuses without possibly committing a felony. Weed with no mania or hallucinations would be great! I completely and utterly sympathize.
Still want to try microdosing with a professional therapist someday. Maybe I'll see other dimensions or parallel universes, if pot was any indicator of what awoke in my brain?! Or my head may just implode, who knows. Maybe ladies like us, Lisa, will find our groove in something benign, like certain batches of kimchi, certain aromatherapy combos or some random roasted root vegetable no one has ever heard of.
"I still despise the smell- like a skunk and an onion had a toxic relationship and had super angry sex and weed was the baby."
This is hysterical! Thanks for reading and commenting.
Yeah, I didn't much like most THC experiences either, vaping or edibles. Mostly made me dizzy. I did have some luck though with an Indica tincture (as opposed to Sativa -- sounds like you had strong Sativa, the energizing version) from a weed dispensary that came in an eye dropper that I put just two or three drops in some cocoa I sipped on and it was lovely, very soothing. Felt warm all over, helped me sleep. I wish I had some now. (You need a prescription in Florida. I should try and get one.) Anyway, might be worth a try.
Definitely worth a try! Thanks 💚
Um, you *are* me and I have never tried gummies for all you describe here. In no way can I welcome any kind of 'unpredictable' reactions in my life because they always end badly. I once took a night time cold remedy that was supposed to cause drowsiness and I was up baking cookies and rabidly vacuuming trying to work through the panic, at 3 am. Codeine had me watching melting faces on a carousel turning slowly in front of my vision, as I tried desperately to sleep. But like you, wine is always lovely and my friend. I've tried CBD oil but for me, it did nothing at all. Just like drinking a bit of olive oil. This was an excellent read, incidentally!
I am breaking my own vow of never offering unasked for advice, but if you're really interested in cannabis, try a vape pen first. You can take tiny tiny little puffs, and vaping effects don't last as long. Much better way to ease into it, imho. (Apologies if I am overstepping).
Love the advice, thanks for sharing!
Does the vape smell like weed the same way it would if you smoked a joint?
There is a smell but it’s nothing like smoking weed and it dissipates quickly. You don’t get the strong smell of weed or the smell of burning. You can vape with other people in the house and they won’t know, if you’re careful. (I am also a cancer survivor—you are welcome to DM me if you have other questions on the topic)
Loved this.
Happened upon your essays today. Truly a wonderful treat. I’m sure you’ve heard it before but it’s important as hell - you make me feel seen and my experience in midlife validated. Gorgeous stuff. Thank you for sharing your talent here 💕
Thanks so much for this wonderful comment - you've made my day! 😊
I was a a small party in New Orleans last spring, and mistakenly ingested a lot of a CBD-laced drink from a can I thought was just flavored water. I added it liberally to my vodka since I couldn’t find any club soda- my usual mixer. It was indeed a wild ride that I don’t want to go on again! Maybe I started off too fast, or maybe today’s CBD is about 20x more potent than what we smoked 40 years ago…
Thanks for trying it, on behalf of us other canaries! I tried CBD oil and it just left me with a hangover head 🙃
Oh, I am so sorry you had the worst time! I can only do a quarter of a gummy, or I get wildly thirsty and just too high??? I'm a super sensor according to the docs. I pretty much turn into Liz Taylor from "Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf" if I have morphine... it's so unpleasant--but I'm so glad I learned this about myself so I can skip the misery. Who knew we were all such bespoke creatures, but we are!
I’m looking forward to the CBD report back. Sober a few decades, and never much of a pot head, I’m still sooo curious about the body high